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It was coincidentally appropriate that my color scheme was red, white, and blue. I wanted to put a lot of effort into my appearance, only to slowly dismantle it by the stains of my own gluttony and vomit, which I shamefully kept trying to correct/hide. I wore my most feminine baby blue dress, clipped in hair extensions, and made myself look as preened and “pretty” as possible. This allowed me to pace myself upon reacting to each gift of beets and also served to mentally prepare me to consume the beets, knowing that the workload of consuming them would only increase, or get worse to the point of physical discomfort, causing me to vomit. The bigger the box the more jars of beets were in the box. I wanted to have 7 white boxes with baby blue bows, that graduated in size, and yielded jars of watery beets (gifts). The vision of my performance “Refund” was clear to me. I wanted to show my disgust, I wanted it to be vibrant, and I wanted to channel all the sadness/pain I’d experienced from acting out shamefully upon myself as well as represent those women shamed by society because they didn’t fit into the “ideal female form,” a mold our delusional culture has created via the oppression of women. It all seemed so equivalent in significance to exposing the shame and oppression that women face as perceived items of beauty and reproduction. Charged with all my feelings and with the intention to connect with an audience in a raw manner, I wanted to literally and figuratively spill my guts! And after overcoming a serious bout of bulimia in my formative years, I knew I could throw up on cue, a talent learned, again, from the shame of what I put into my body. I told my neighbor and local performance artist, Cat Scott, that hearing this news created an opportunity and gave me the confidence to speak my truth in a way I had never explored before– the medium of Performance Art! I have been fortunate to speak/express my truth in my music ventures and art pieces, but nothing as raw as recreating a vigilante fantasy in my mind. To me, this was an obvious act of shaming women, their bodies, and gave more care, attention, and value to the dead tissue that was removed from a woman’s body, rather than nurturing and healing the the life of the woman who had just gone through an emotionally and physically traumatizing ordeal. “Refund” was initially inspired by the emotional reaction of disgust I experienced when I was informed that there was talk of mandating a rule for abortion clinics to cremate the fetal remains/miscarriages of their patients.
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Here are some words from Casey about her piece: To witness a woman push through the unspoken rules that are placed upon her in this culture, rewrites the rules of being a woman for Casey obviously, but also for those that truly witnessed her brave and righteous rebellion. In her writings she explains how this piece functions as healing for her, but it is important to connect how her actions have a healing effect on the audience as well. This piece is a shining example of how performance art can function as healing ritual, catharsis and personal transformation. When asking her more about her process and intentions of the piece, I deeply resonated with her process. Casey is a glowing example of an artist, new to performance art, taking this opportunity and creating something beautiful and powerful. One unique aspect of Experimental Action is that in order to fulfill a part of its mission to nurture the Houston performance art scene, it offers opportunities for beginner performance artists alongside well established artists. Casey Waldner performed her first performance art piece, entitled Refund, this past February as part of Houston’s International Performance Art Festival, Experimental Action*.